I always thought that March was supposed to be the month that comes in like a lion. It turns out that January came in that way, and it’s not going out like a lamb at all.
In my last post, I affirmed that I would be dedicated in my evangelization, personal bible study, and taking care of myself in 2012. I set a workout schedule. I started a bible reading plan. I even vowed to make more time for blogging. It was all going to be perfect.
Then on January 7th, I received some news that turned my life on its head. I’m fine, but someone called me with some terrible news. I can’t post the details here, because their story is not mine to share, but I will tell you, I was angry, upset, and scared to death.
Now, the me that I was two years ago probably would have ended up in a ball in the corner crying and not knowing what to do. Granted, I really didn’t know what to do. So, I prayed. Now don’t get me wrong, I was still pretty pissed off. I asked a lot of questions. In particular, “Why the heck is God letting this happen?” Then in true form, I started to feel bad, because who the heck am I to question Father God like that.
Thankfully I have some good friends with a strong background in the bible. Thanks to one of those friends, I learned that I am not the only person who ever asked this question. I also learned that my question was alright. I just needed to continue to trust in God and pray. I know, it’s easier said than done, but try it once when you’re at your wits end and your world’s falling apart and see what happens.
I did something else that was completely uncharacteristic in this situation. I asked for help and prayers. Right away, I called and texted my closest friends. I emailed everyone that I knew who would offer up prayers for this person. I requested prayers in a status update on Facebook. I called people just to ramble and talk. So, instead of running and hiding, I sought out the people around me. I let them give me words of encouragement and pray with me.
Through that something pretty miraculous happened. I actually started to trust that God would fix the situation. Perhaps more importantly, I had the strength to deal with everything that was going on. Now, I will admit, I was pretty exhausted and didn’t sleep, but I was able to deal with everything was going on.
As if that was not enough, something else even more miraculous happened; I found out that the news I got was wrong. Again, I can’t share the exact details, but I will stress to you that if you are in a profession that requires you to write numbers and decimal points on reports, make sure you put them in the correct place and order. Just saying…
As the end of January is upon us, I wish I could report that my life was less stressful, and that I had all the answers for this person’s situation. Things are still up in the air, and it seems like every time this person gets one answer in life, it leads to about six or seven more questions. The insomnia still hits and it often happens at the most inopportune times. (If anyone ever needs a prayer buddy between 3am and 5am let me know, I may know someone ;) ) I don’t think my life will ever truly quiet down and be stress free. I do know two things though. God is with me through all of it, and I have some of the greatest friends in this world. It definitely makes the endless roller coaster of ups and downs much easier to bear.
Wishing everyone blessings. Until next time…
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